Dreams

For some reason I feel compelled to talk about recurring dreams...or nightmares. I probably should have come up with something a little more interesting since I haven't written in a month! In any case, I'm listing a few of these recurring dreams because I'm curious as to whether other people have them. I'm pretty sure the interpretation of all of them boils down to feeling overwhelmingly stressed and anxious.

1. 8th grade science project: It's the present. I've gone to high school, college, and grad school. I'm a practicing attorney. I find out I never turned in an 8th grade science project. This means I never actually graduated the 8th grade. Without graduating the 8th grade you can't go to high school. No high school...no college. My entire education and career is instantly invalid.

2. Teeth: Teeth falling out! I hate this dream. Sometimes I'm spitting my teeth out. Sometimes my teeth are crumbling. I try not to talk so I can hold them in. I wake up in a panic thankful they are there.

3. Swim meet: It's the first meet of the season. I've skipped every practice. I'm supposed to race. I'm fiddling with my goggles convinced they will fill with water or fall off when I dive. I can't remember if I ever start the race.

4. Can't dial: There is some emergency or some need for me to pick up the phone and call someone. I can't dial the numbers. I keep messing up. I can't even manage to dial 911. In the age of the smart phone sometimes I'm trying to look up something important on the internet.

5. No clothes. I actually grew up never having the no clothes dream. This just reminded me of another dream. I'll do that next. The dream is that I'm in a public place and I am aware that I am not fully dressed. I'm trying to act normal about it, and in my mind in the dream it's supposed to be ok, but somehow I'm aware that I should have on more clothes. People don't really seem to notice. I'm embarrassed.

6. Bathroom in the hall: It's the hallways of my middle school. The bathrooms are in the hall. There are no stalls. If you want to use the bathroom you have to go where everyone can see you. (I've not yet been brave enough to use these bathrooms.)

7. Babies: We are all back in high school. We are all pregnant and about to go into labor. People from high school tend to be in this dream. Sometimes we end up congregating in the elementary school music room. I think one time in that dream it was converted into the delivery room.

8. Wedding: I'm already married. For some reason I decide to have another wedding with my already husband. Well I think I'm already married. I can't get to the church or reception. The flowers aren't ordered. People haven't done what they are supposed to do. All of these things keep getting in my way. I miss out on everything.

9. This is a dream I remembered after I published this post. I'm driving my mom's old blue Explorer, usually it's over the river, and I'm going at excessive speeds on a very high and maze of a bridge with no guardrails. I'm aware of my speed, but for some reason I don't or can't slow down as I take these sharp turns. All I can think about is flying off the bridge, but somehow I don't. I'm always in my mom's old car and it's always crossing a bridge over the Mississippi. Probably another indication that I feel as though my life is out of control.

I think that's about it. Pretty sure I need to spend a week at some relaxation spa or something. I think these recurring nightmares suggest I have a little stress in my life!